So thank you for FBC and the many lively minds and friends that come along- Livia & Doerthe being the pleasant surprise guests this evening.
And I have almost finished the applications; decided to put up that LOVELY picture that Rachael gave me, which led to me putting up pictures up in my room and some new one’s in the front room, which then led me sorting out the book shelf that Rachael had also gave me, so I have had a mini room make over. This makes my room actually look like it belongs to me, so I am pleased about that Sometimes its the smallest things that make a difference and then it is a domino effect. (I should know this- I am a life coach!)
As we walked home, I noticed Gillespie Park and as I hadn’t been there before and was in a walking mood, myself and Ed went inside. And I am very glad I did, because there were lots of trees and a little woody walk, for few minutes at least you would believe that you were no longer in London. Sometimes I have an unarticulated urge to not be in London, and it was nice to walk and have the lovely illusion of having left the city. So I am glad that I explored somewhere new and yet on my own doorstop.
Today I don’t feel that grateful
In fact I feel quite stupid and used.
This morning I would have said ‘I’ve had a ball’
This evening, I’m jaded & bruised.
You may say I must be careful,
When bringing boys back to the yard
For recklessness cloaks the deceitful
Oh my, have I learnt my lesson hard.
That pleasure meets pain daily,
And those twins will not be denied
Pleasure seduces you oh so gaily
When pain attacks, you are surprised.
Today I was rudely reminded,
Of those fools who trample on dreams
Please beware of those so lustful
And ignore their siren screams.
The best thing about today was stroking a lovely puppy, all wriggly, warm and cute.
Today has been hard, I woke up at 5am this morning and spent the day with a group of children who seemed hard wired to ignore the word ‘listen’. Well that’s what it felt like! I am also feeling a bit run down from all my excess at the weekend.
However as I am committed to writing this blog, I had a good think this evening about what was good today and this afternoon stood out. Today I worked with a child with severe special educational needs. This is only the second time I had done this so I am a complete novice where SEN is concerned but today I felt really pleased that I was able to communicate with her and was understood although she cannot really speak; and that I helped her to finish her homework -writing the letter ‘h’. I also helped her brother make a card, so I felt I was of use to some children and there is a lovely, warm feeling when you help a child to do their homework or learn something new. I might, just might have touched a well of patience I didn’t realise I had, I guess only time will tell if this is true or not…
Other than that, I am really pleased that I had the house to myself this evening and that I was able to stuff myself with pizza and cake whilst watching Gossip Girl. I was in real comfort mode this evening so have spent the evening in bed, wearing my Dad’s old golfing jumper.
I’m rather tired this evening so this will be short: I am glad that I can create rapport with young people which hopefully will lead to me being able to help them in the future. Also I am thankful for old friends, that when you see them, even after a long time, it is as if you saw them only a few days ago.
- My colleagues bought me a fantastic lipstick that I wore this morning, it really suited me and I am lucky to have such lovely colleagues who buy me great makeup!
- That at work, I am able to put across Ideas (buying Articulate for interview shy teenagers) and I am encouraged and supported.
- That I have friends that will treat me to Nando’s when I am skint; and listen to me without judging me.